1 Year

Exactly a year ago at this moment, I was laying in a hospital bed experiencing the most intense and exhilarating pain. I was 60 pounds heavier than I am right now, swollen, draped in a beautiful shabby hospital gown. But, I was excited because Caleb was soon to arrive! It has been a year since I had a baby growing inside of me. A full year of love, joy, sleepless nights, emotional craziness, smiles, laughs, tears, milestones, thrills, and many blessings.

I am so grateful that two years ago, God put the desire in me to have a baby. I know that it was pure inspiration from God to begin trying to get pregnant. Caleb was sent to us at this time for so many special purposes that have already been prevalent in our family.

Dear Caleb,

I cannot count how many hours
I have walked in circles, rocking you to sleep
I cannot forget the instant love
I first felt for you so deep

I will never ever find boredom in
Hearing your laugh and seeing you smile
I will never regret the sacrifice
Of carrying you in my tummy for a while

I cannot believe it is true
That God entrusted your precious soul with me
I cannot imagine, either,
Any other way it should be

I will never stop feeling gratitude
For being blessed to be your mom
I will never stop praying for God to help me
To be gentle, dependable, and strong

I cannot stop loving you
I never will, throughout all time and all space
I cannot imagine the world without you in it
With your smile lighting up your face

Love, Mommy